Friday, October 01, 2021
Feminist!
Monday, September 27, 2021
ഒരു ഇത്തിരി കുഞ്ഞന് കഥ!
Thursday, September 16, 2021
Lost
If only...
Being High!
Sunday, January 10, 2021
2021
Last few years of my life was really strange and memorable due to various reasons. I am not sure if it made me a better person. But it did make me a stronger person. Relationships have always been a weak spot for me. I never mastered the love laws. Love laws that laid down who should be loved and how and how much. At this point I realize it is of no use. Trying to master the love laws. So here is my promise to 2021, I shift my focus to writing. I know unlike the other new year resolutions, I will stick to this one. Because there is nowhere else to hide. I need to liberate myself or drown myself in the pain seeping from the past. I choose former. I will stick to it! Amen.
Wednesday, November 18, 2020
The Me Mania, Period!
Saturday, September 19, 2020
I can’t look at you...
I can't look at you
For you are too perfect a sight
With the big sorrowful eyes
That foolishly holds honesty.
I can't look at you
Fearing exposure to that
Enchanting but, gentle smile
That reflects a soul of beauty.
I can't look at you
For you appear like a half-read
And long forgotten fairy tale
Invoking a longing for bygone youth.
I can't look at you
For there is a forbidden warmth
Hidden somewhere in your eyes
That defines a word called Kindness.
I can't look at you
For I am damaged and you are whole
The dangerous opposites
That are meant to stay apart.
Friday, September 11, 2020
Again Gandhi!
Saturday, July 25, 2020
Why can't I run away...
I have to run faster than my thought spirals
And the memories that hold me down
the well trodden lanes
If I have to run,
I have to find harmless resting points
Where they can't reach me, and strip my peace
If I have to run,
I have to have enough energy to never get exhausted
And lose my goals just half way through
If I have to run,
I carry the risk of reaching the start again
For world always runs in pointless circles
But if I learn to stay still,
Like the nature listening to the sound of life
Acceptance comes in search of me bringing along its worthy friend, peace!
And that's why my dearest friend
I cannot move from here
Though my head reels with gallant plans
And body trembles to follow along
Life is all I am,
Life is all I can be
If I have to run,
I cease to be Life anymore!
Friday, June 26, 2020
Me and My Madness!
http://thetinyme.blogspot.com/2006/07/when-u-lose-faith-in-friendship.html
About losing friendship. Funny thing is I have managed to end up in the same situation again. Where does the problem lie? It lies in the way I define relationships. The expectations I set on relationships. And the fact that I can't make friends easily. I cannot call a person a friend without knowing them for at least 3 years. And I do not have the maturity to define the boundaries of relationships.
Everybody dies alone. It does not scare me. Loneliness. What scares me is my inability to act normal in this world. My inability to hide my weakness and clumsiness.
There are certain learning as well. Confidence building is an activity I have to consider seriously. There are roots that are scary. There are nightmares that I have carefully preserved that holds me down. The inhibitions that is ingrained to me. But I know where to start, cleansing usually starts from within, but for me it starts from outside!
Friday, March 23, 2018
Smiles and Laughters !! (Day Four)
During my pre degree hostel days, Gowri's smile was the one that always lifted my spirits. It was not a conventionally beautiful smile as she had put braces during that time. But it was one warm smile filled with love and innocence.
Then there is Kathu, my best friend...Her smile is an energy boost for even strangers. Not just because she is beautiful. But coz of the warmth of the person maybe... I still don't know the secret yet :) But her smile did make guys crazy ;)
I have been lucky enough to see my own smile couple of times!!! Trust me, it can work wonders for you. Once I had been in the railway station to board a train to Chennai. Since I was travelling alone I felt really bored. That is when Vijay called. He is a friend who can put a smile on your face, even when you are at the peak of frustration. While talking I turned around and was greeted by a very warm smile. Of course my own, from a mirror :) The happiness in my eyes were completely in sync with the smile on my lips ... Thats when I realized I can fall in love with my own smile too ;)
But now a days people are influenced by the visual feast served by television and cinemas... For most of them a beautiful smile means a colgate Ad smile, with white pearly teeth and glowing face and wrinkle less skin. But to me a smile is beautiful when it flows out of the person illuminating the surroundings... It doesn't matter even if he/she has the worst set of teeth or wrinkled skin or stupid nose. Once during our trip to pondicherry, we went on a boat, which was pedaled by a very dark guy... He might be in his forties. He was very dark, with tobacco stained teeth and very neat abs (The result of all his pedaling I suppose)... He never smiled completely, but had a very slight unnoticeable smile. There was a beautiful knowingness in his smile. I don't remember his face. But I still remember the feel of that slight smile.
Sometimes its amazing to see a different smile on a person whom you have known for a long time. A smile that can change long formed perceptions. I have seen that smile on my mom, when she sleeps. She might be having a sweet dream. Usually she frowns for something or the other. She is a worried soul. It's hard to catch her relaxing. But her smile in her sleep was so beautiful I did wish I was present in that dream of hers :)
I hope I can receive and give away more genuine smiles in the days to come. They do count in this mundane life. Hugs and smiles to all of you!
Thursday, March 22, 2018
Farming - (Day Three)
But somehow I have this deep rooted feeling that farming is a solid thing. Like something that can refine you and make you grounded. It teaches you the cycles of life, and make you humble. Of course these are mere beliefs because I never had any real interaction with farmers except for one of my uncles. He is a real inspiration with solid six pack body and strong principles.
I always wonder about the stupidities of the priorities of human beings. If you consider the money ladder, the highest money making ones will probably be the entertainment industries. Movies, Games, Social Networking etc. And the essential ones like farming comes at the lowest level in the ladder. I do not know the reason for this phenomenon. But it might be the predictable outcome of the factor that humans are moving away from nature day by day.
In facebook I have found a farmers collective who share good amount of information on farming.
https://www.facebook.com/farmerscollective/?pnref=lhc
Suresh, one of the members of this group (https://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=100006871121523) always share informative posts on farming and I felt they are a socially responsible group. So yesterday I did a tiny little thing. I messaged Suresh in fb. Asked him if he could involve kids also in farming during the summer vacation time. Something like a summer camp for the kids. It will be awesome if kids get an opportunity to be close to nature, even if that is for some weeks. He told he will seriously consider the idea. It made me a happy person for the day :)...Hope they can start an initiative with kids and hope more and more city kids get a flavor of farming. And most importantly I hope our next generation give due importance to farming! I am hoping Nived gets an opportunity to be part of it if they start an initiative, if not for this year may be in one of the coming years. It gives me hope!
Diwanjimoola Grand Prix (Day Two)
Tuesday, March 20, 2018
Bucket List! - (Day One)
Here is what I came up with
- Own a 1bhk in a high rise apartment and fill it with books.
- Learn at least one form of dance form (even bollywood dance will do)
- Visit Paris & Amsterdam & Sweden once again. The exact same places where the magic happened
- Travel alone (A trip of minimum a week)
- A Jungle trek
- Learn Swimming
- Master Hata yoga
- Write a book(short stories)
- Write autobiography
- Spend a night at seashore
- Write 1000 poems
- Visit Cuba
- Visit St.Petersburg
- Visit Amazon jungles
- Complete a full marathon
- Win Snn Badminton tournament
- Visit Bodh Gaya
- Visit Nepal
- Ride a horse with a six packed cow boy
So many things in 5 mins!!...Let me begin the ground work now ;)
Blog Marathon!
Monday, November 20, 2017
The game of Life!
Thursday, November 02, 2017
Death
Wednesday, August 23, 2017
Love scars...
With an intensity that left deep scars
But love scars, like war wounds
Are bourne with immense pride
Though they hurt bad and are stupidly ugly
You just know that they are worth the trouble
The foolish little memorials
Of your strangest battles with life!