Why can't I run away...

If I have to run,
I have to run faster than my thought spirals
And the memories that hold me down
the well trodden lanes

If I have to run,
I have to find harmless resting points
Where they can't reach me, and strip my peace

If I have to run,
I have to have enough energy to never get exhausted
And lose my goals just half way through

If I have to run,
I carry the risk of reaching the start again
For world always runs in pointless circles

But if I learn to stay still,
Like the nature listening to the sound of life
Acceptance comes in search of me bringing along its worthy friend,  peace!

And that's why my dearest friend
I cannot move from here
Though my head reels with gallant plans
And body trembles to follow along

Life is all I am,
Life is all I can be
If I have to run,
I cease to be Life anymore!