This is something I wrote more than a decade back
http://thetinyme.blogspot.com/2006/07/when-u-lose-faith-in-friendship.html
About losing friendship. Funny thing is I have managed to end up in the same situation again. Where does the problem lie? It lies in the way I define relationships. The expectations I set on relationships. And the fact that I can't make friends easily. I cannot call a person a friend without knowing them for at least 3 years. And I do not have the maturity to define the boundaries of relationships.
Everybody dies alone. It does not scare me. Loneliness. What scares me is my inability to act normal in this world. My inability to hide my weakness and clumsiness.
There are certain learning as well. Confidence building is an activity I have to consider seriously. There are roots that are scary. There are nightmares that I have carefully preserved that holds me down. The inhibitions that is ingrained to me. But I know where to start, cleansing usually starts from within, but for me it starts from outside!
http://thetinyme.blogspot.com/2006/07/when-u-lose-faith-in-friendship.html
About losing friendship. Funny thing is I have managed to end up in the same situation again. Where does the problem lie? It lies in the way I define relationships. The expectations I set on relationships. And the fact that I can't make friends easily. I cannot call a person a friend without knowing them for at least 3 years. And I do not have the maturity to define the boundaries of relationships.
Everybody dies alone. It does not scare me. Loneliness. What scares me is my inability to act normal in this world. My inability to hide my weakness and clumsiness.
There are certain learning as well. Confidence building is an activity I have to consider seriously. There are roots that are scary. There are nightmares that I have carefully preserved that holds me down. The inhibitions that is ingrained to me. But I know where to start, cleansing usually starts from within, but for me it starts from outside!
