Thirty !

I turned thirty today. Funny how time flies. I was just recollecting all previous birthdays. Till 10th std I used to count months and days to the next birthday. For the new dress and plenty of chocolates. During pre degree birthdays were a surprise, with birthday cards sticked outside ur room and midnight birthday wishes. But somehow I did not like them... I always liked it quiet. After that came the engineering birthdays.  They were fun with funky cards and mysterious gifts. One birthday during engineering days were quite memorable. Not coz it was wonderful. But I cried a lot that day. Reason was the usual one during college days. Love...LOL But I still remeber that birthday night. The cold and lonely journey in general compartment to home, during which i cried a lot. And the best one ever was my 23rd birthday. There was nothing special about that one. No gifts, no party. But a nice evening with a wonderful person who was continuously apologising for not getting a gift :) After marriage birthdays lost their importance. Shabu never believed in celebrating birthdays and i too lost interest in them, except ofcourse Nived's :) Today as usual there was celebration in office.  It was fun. Thanks to the guys n gals in office ...
But something is nagging me... Whole day along the prominent feeling was not happiness, but strangely it was lonliness. Is it how it starts? The middle age ?