When u lose faith in friendship....

Have you ever thought, what happens when u lose faith in friendship? Seems to be a silly question. But sometimes it does happen. Ok I will tell you what happened to me when I lost faith in friendship. Nothing. Yes, Nothing happened. I dint even know that I have lost something. I never felt the pain. A slight irritation for few days. I never noticed anything else. Even now I don’t feel any pain or sadness. But now (after one long year) I realize what I have lost. I lost my feelings along with it. I don’t feel anything now a days. Happiness, Sorrow, Anger, Fear…not even appetite. Something inside stopped working. It may change in due course of time. I may come back to my real self. I wont mind even if I don’t come back to my real self. In fact its far better this way than my original self. Its like attaining “Nirvana” with not much effort ;-). It’s funny. Life really is. If u told me 2 years back, that a hard core “sentimentalist” like me would change like this, I would have defenitely kicked ur butt J. Let me see how long this will go… Maybe I can share some valuable learning (like a rishi) when this period is over. Or maybe I am in the path of Enlightenment Who knows ;-)