My Wonderful Saturday Afternoons !!!

If u are in the assumption that i do something highly creative or highly interesting on saturday, then u r completely wrong. I just do my ironing on Saturdays. But let me tell you its the most peaceful work u can do in a Saturday. Straightening the creases of my clothes listening to RadioCity or RadioMirchi ( whichever plays good songs) is really wonderful for me. My roomie will be there in her bed reading Harry Potter. There wont be any conversation. Just the song in the background. When they put her favourite or mine or ours, we just look up and smile. Thats the only conversation we have during that whole after noon.

Sounds like an art movie?? Well try it out and u will know what i mean. But all these ingrediants should be there. Nice song, ur close friend (close enough that silence can comunicate) and a good iron box. Its the time to recollect everything, good n bad times. Without any pleasure/sadness I just rewind the scenes of life. And i feel the peace of a silent prayer surround me. Warmth of the newly ironed cloth spread through my mind and body. That makes my Saturday afternoons wonderful :-)

Caution: Before u try this (if at all u do), just be proficient enough in ironing, so that u can day dream without burning ur skin !!!

PS: Hmm you know something, if there is something priceless in my life thats my IRONBOX ;-)

When u lose faith in friendship....

Have you ever thought, what happens when u lose faith in friendship? Seems to be a silly question. But sometimes it does happen. Ok I will tell you what happened to me when I lost faith in friendship. Nothing. Yes, Nothing happened. I dint even know that I have lost something. I never felt the pain. A slight irritation for few days. I never noticed anything else. Even now I don’t feel any pain or sadness. But now (after one long year) I realize what I have lost. I lost my feelings along with it. I don’t feel anything now a days. Happiness, Sorrow, Anger, Fear…not even appetite. Something inside stopped working. It may change in due course of time. I may come back to my real self. I wont mind even if I don’t come back to my real self. In fact its far better this way than my original self. Its like attaining “Nirvana” with not much effort ;-). It’s funny. Life really is. If u told me 2 years back, that a hard core “sentimentalist” like me would change like this, I would have defenitely kicked ur butt J. Let me see how long this will go… Maybe I can share some valuable learning (like a rishi) when this period is over. Or maybe I am in the path of Enlightenment Who knows ;-)

The Mirror World

Have u ever looked into the mirror and seen the other world? Nisha taught me that technique. Just lie down with a mirror and imagine the world u see there is real. Walking around touching lights and fans (if u r inside a room) or walking around touching the top of trees. U can even create steps to heaven. Its fun to do that. But i havnt done that for a long time. Why did i think of it now? Dont know. I saw the rain today. Not such a beautiful rain. But it reminded me of that mirror world. There everything is so unreal but so fine. Its like Dostoveskys "Dream of a Mad Man". So serene and peaceful place.
But whats the relation b/w that gloomy rain which strongly reminded me of this aesthetical world? I dont know. It shows I am getting restless. Time for next letter to God :). Not now anyway :)

I am soo Happy Today

Y I dont know... but i am very happy. Deepak if u want u can withdraw some from my account today:-)

Life Goes On

When some things happen we feel like running away from life. To go to some far away place place and hide so that memories won't find us. But most of the times we stay back and realize that our memories have faded, slowly turning shades of blue from bright red. Finally they cannot touch us.
Do I sound absurd? Well I am a bit absurd at times. Deepak gave me the idea to fight fear with rationale. Thats an absolutely gorgeous idea. I implemented it successfully, many thanks to you Deepak. But what I liked about that idea is , I still fear my passions, the wild passions that can take u to anywhere, the never ending desire to experiment (apt word will be gamble), but now I can control them. And this time I dont feel like I am taming them and putting them in a cage. This time its different. I feel they are following me , rather than asking me to follow them. It feels really good :-)
But at times I can let them go. And follow them where ever they go. It will be fun. Life is full of fun. There is no time to look back and regret
Sorry I know this is highly unorganised, but so am I:-)... And you have guessed it right, this time I have let my passions reign me ;-)