"Sorry" is a word
That is as ancient as the scriptures
"Grateful" is another word
That again carries beautiful shades
"I am" is a tiny prefix
When added with these words
Brings out their true meaning
And touches the depths of your heart
And those two words
They stay with me now
Like partners forever
To fill the vacuum you created
I knew from the beginning
The inevitable end that awaited us
The weight of love laws
That always broke people to pieces
Life moves on like a speed boat
Swiftly changing the tapestry behind
But the gentle touch of water remains
So does your memories linger
I am sorry for the pain I caused
I am grateful for your unique gift
There I have done it now
The words are out and I am free(maybe!)
10 comments:
free ! :)
you are still so full of him......
No ... I am free of "him"s... But I am not free of the guilt... Hurting someone, especially someone who valued me, that creates an enormous burden of guilt... That's something I need to get out of... :)
:) don't you think you are keeping "him" in your life through this guilt ? May be guilt another name for love/need and may be it means you are not ready to free "him" ?
if you are really free, why not able to think may be he is better off without you ? may be the hurt that u caused was something necessary for him to move on and have a different life?
just as a reader.... all/most your poems are about him and seems "you" are not ready to let go, "you" still like/need the attention/value he gives......if he still is around why not fall in love again.....
sorry for intruding in something so personal.....but sounds so much like a story I know.....lots of love......
Long story 😉... but the point is my writings are only 10% of me... So what u label here as like/need is just a small portion of me... And I don't let go of this 10% because I feel it makes me a better person... The moment I feel it's getting toxic I will let go of this too 😊 I am a practical idiot irrespective of the bakwas I write!
Much love...
I am so glad to see you post new :) was getting worried if I encroached your safe space and decided not to comment on any new post. so adding comment here... :)
Keep writing more....what is love for you, God, your world view, stories you know, stories you feel should be written...you have a great heart, follow it always....I know for a fact it never goes wrong....love....
and I agree about words, isn't creater a smart one that he/she/it gave us five senses( or may be more) to feel and express and didn't stop just with speech....
I have no idea why I feel like giving my expert comments on everything you write....but will try to read and enjoy and not interrupt/encroach here after :)
keep writing.....
(may be I secretly desire you will reply back and say don't stop commenting....so don't fall for that trap.... :) :) ) c u.....
Thank you for the kind words. And honestly don't know what to say! I am not bothered by the comments :)
So if you feel like, you are welcome to give your expert comments. But only if u feel like it. No compulsion !!
aanh....I see you miss me :) kidding...but thank you.... :)
kind...I don't know...love... definitely... divine...100%.....
so the divine today says.....be the kareena of jab we met, who says 'i am my favourite...' :) after all who will know you better than you? reasons for all stupid decisions, all your known and unknown fears, how much you want someone to hold you close and say everything will be okay, nobody was harmed by you in this process of life, your innocence is intact, all that happened was best, it was all for a better tomorrow of everyone, all is well.....so please look in the mirror, tell her you love her no matter what, you know her truth good and bad and you know and trust that she always did her best.... please tell her there is nothing perfect in this world that she has to aim to be, everything is perfect as is....so she can relax and just be.....the perfect she already is.....
note- don't reply to this....I know you read....this was between you and your God....God says....love :)
:)
Idea....take pen and paper, write what you want to say and give it to them...the old school letter writing....it helps and is fun and a bit romantic:) trust me, pen and paper gives you clarity and confidence....
and remember....this too shall pass....
love....
Again here :)
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