Beautiful Woman

I have always wished to be a beautiful woman. Like the women we read about in stories, with perfect features and perfect face. A beautiful woman who can turn heads by just being there. A woman with charisma. A woman like Tolstoy's Anna. During college days I had my share of inferiority complex about my looks. But more than that, I wanted to be a beautiful woman, just to know the power of being beautiful. How will you feel when you know that you can manipulate people without putting any effort other than a simple smile (Kuthiraykku kombu kodukkilla ennu parayunnathu veruthe alla ;)). As Chanakya rightly said "Beauty of a 17 year old girl is more dangerous than any powerful man in the whole world". I have many friends who are very pretty. But only 2 or 3 falls under the category of beautiful woman. Of course beauty is always relative and depends on beholder, but these friends whom I talk about are really beautiful, and knows how to carry off their beautiful self. There is another aspect as well. They are well aware of the fact that they are beautiful [:D] and more than that they know how to make use of their power as a beautiful woman. My best friend N, she is something like a thunderbolt. With her smile and demure manners she has achieved hundred folds than any other brute force could ever achieve. I have always watched her with awe and envy, the way she can manipulate people - most of the times they would not even realize they have been manipulated. Most pretty woman does that unknowingly, but her strength is she can do that knowingly.

But there is another aspect to beauty. Charisma... There was a senior in our college. No one will give her a second look for her "looks". She was dark, without any poetically mentionable features like doe eyes or elegant nose or full lips or a commendable figure. But each time she walked heads automatically turned to her. Her confident self was capable of attracting people, without being the "pretty woman". I should be trying to attain this charisma at least. But the sad truth is if it took the whole of last 27 years to make this blunt self it will take another 27 to get it refined :(. Anyway nothing wrong in trying :D

So that is one of my recurring day dream - what I would have achieved had I been a beautiful woman :D :D.... Most probably I would have been murdered even before I can do some simple experiments with my power (Athanallo kayyiliruppu :D)... ;D